Good morning…

Prayerfully reflecting on our intimate conversation, God exposed my own fearful coping mechanism. In the face of tearful, grieving pain, I talked too much. I took up too much space in the room. Stuck in my head, I rambled on. An excessive amount of words poured out of my mouth, as I tried to explain God’s big picture plan, as I tried to fix and to mend and to patch up wide wounds. Looking in the rearview mirror, I saw myself trying to tidy up messy emotions, some for her and a lot for me, selfishly knowing I would feel better if she felt better.

Revealing my lack of trust in God’s ability to heal whole over time, I stepped in front of the Holy Spirit. I elbowed the Change Agent out of my way so I could speed up her healing process, according to my own loving, misguided agenda.

I am a poor, puny version of a helper when I fail to trust our healing Helper.

Let your character [your moral essence, your inner nature] be free from the love of money (or in my case free from the love of control) [shun greed—be financially ethical], (or in my case – be emotionally and relationally ethical) being content with what you have (and what every other person has also); for He has said, “I will never [under any circumstances] desert you [nor give you up nor leave you without support, nor will I in any degree leave you helpless], nor will I forsake or let you down or relax My hold on you [assuredly not]!” So we take comfort and are encouraged and confidently say, “The Lord is my Helper [in time of need], I will not be afraid,” (Hebrews 13:5-6a, AMP).

Out of my fear, I was greedy for talk time, for healing influence, for her pain to be relieved in my time, in my way. My ramblings revealed my lack of trust in God’s promise to all of us: “I will never, under any circumstance desert you, leaving you helpless without support. I will never let you down or relax My hold on you, assuredly not!”

So, please learn with me from my mistake. Take comfort. Be encouraged. Say with confidence: “The LORD is our Helper in time of need.” As we shed our fearful ways of coping, we allow Holy Spirit power to do God’s slow work.

…Sue…