Good morning…
“Sitting still with God, we un-blend our emotions,” said our group leader on Tuesday morning.
The word “blend” made me think of the smoothie-making process. I take separate ingredients. Almond milk. Frozen fruit, blueberries, raspberries, strawberries. A scoop of protein powder. A spoonful of plain yogurt. A big handful of spinach. I “blend” it all together to make a mixed-up new creation.
The word “un-blend” made me consider prayer as a reversal of the process. When I sit still with God, I separate my mixed-up emotions into their individual parts. For example, take the experience of me being the primary parent for our new puppy, Cami.
“Un-blending” the messy mixture inside of me, I separate my emotions with God. I feel excited by Cami’s soft cuteness. I feel tired by the added responsibility, sorting out when, who, how quality care will be given. I feel unsure of how to best meet her unspoken newborn needs, pooping, peeing, chewing. I feel thankful for friends who share supplies, bring her toys, and give me wise advice. I feel self-doubt, “Was this really a good idea?” I feel hopeful that the love I pour into her will eventually come back to our family in the form of a loyal grown-up golden.
And Cami is only one facet of an already full life, with my work, our family, my aging parents, loving friends, deep needs in our community and around the globe.
God, into your care I release it all. I surrender us all, again.
Sit.
Still.
With God.
I am like a smoothie, with many mixed-up parts. When I sit still with God, I separate my emotions, naming, claiming, taming them, one by one. Sipping from a full cup, I am excited and tired, unsure and thankful, self-doubting and hopeful. Prayerfully surrendering everything to the God who knows and loves me, I emerge from the “un-blending” process more calm, more content, more creatively connected.
As we sit still with God, “un-blending” our messy mixture, we find ourselves… advancing God’s program of instruction which is grounded in faith [and requires surrendering the entire self to God in absolute trust and confidence] (1 Timothy 1:4b, AMP).
What full cup of emotions might you “un-blend” today?
Sit.
Still.
With God.
…Sue…
