Healing Is Happening
Good morning... Waking after a full night's sleep, I cozy up on the couch and think, "Healing is happening." God invites me forward from yesterday's post, My Unexpected Grief. I return to the wise book sustaining me very personally during this season of Lent, Paula D'Arcy's Winter of the Heart: Finding Your Way Through the Mystery of Grief. I open to page 37 to pick up where God left off. Molly Fumia writes [...]
My Unexpected Grief
Good morning... It was hard to leave Ohio with my mother in the ICU. I had a meaningful visit with my parents and siblings, but I was deeply concerned about my mom's condition. On my final morning with her, the nurse asked her where she was and my mom replied, "I am at the Renaissance (the retirement community where my parents live), but I'm supposed to say I am at the doctor's office." [...]
No Medical Explanation
Good morning... On Monday morning, my dad and I were with my mom in the ICU when her regular doctor stopped in. He had seen my mom soon after she was admitted, when she was hooked up to all the machinery keeping her alive. Very, very sick with an unidentified infection, she was unresponsive and highly sedated. That Friday, her doctor did not seem very optimistic. Now this was Monday. What would he [...]
A Frozen Strand Of Hope
Good morning... When we left my mom in the ICU, it was a blustery late March evening with light snowflakes swirling in the Ohio air. There was a strand of hope frozen in our minds: mom had opened her eyes for about five minutes. Then she had drifted away from us again. Sustained by the ventilator, her body was deeply in need of rest. We left the hospital cautiously optimistic. For nearly two [...]
Praying In The ICU
Good morning... "It will be good for us all to be together," my sister said as I booked a one-way ticket to Cleveland, Ohio to be with my 83-year-old mom in the ICU. "We may need to make some hard end of life decisions." The reality was sobering. I had begun the normal day facilitating our Friday class beneath the back porch of our Atlanta home and by bedtime I was in my [...]
My Mom Is In The ICU
Good morning... Unexpectedly waking at dawn near Cleveland, Ohio, I shed quiet tears beside the bay window in my parents' villa. As I look out on their continuum of care community, gloomy rain turns to gentle, white snowflakes on this memorable late March morning. Soon we will visit my mom in the ICU, wondering whether her loving life will turn the corner toward a slow, steady recovery or will turn her soul toward [...]
We Play Hide And Seek
Good morning... Wrapped beneath a cozy blanket, I nestle alone on the outdoor couch below our back porch. With my ear to my phone, I savor the four familiar voices on our monthly call. After the silence of our opening prayer, one friend reads aloud a poem. What a quietly transformational place to begin. ****** Hide and Seek by Malcolm Guite Ready or not, you tell me, here I come! And I know [...]
I Love This Taste!
Good morning... This baffled woman surrounded by a wide variety of delicious possibilities represents the way I feel the morning after my fun filled birthday: "I don't remember the name, but it had a taste that I liked." I couldn't possibly name all of the nuanced ways God's love pours through you to me yesterday. Just like a rich, robust bottle of wine, the small hints of unique flavors blended beautifully into one [...]
On My 59th Birthday
Good morning... "Hi there," yesterday I texted a dear friend I have enjoyed quality time with for nearly thirty years. "I have our birthday season lunch on my calendar. What time do you want to meet at our special spot?" "Argh," she replied immediately, "was just going to write you. Spent five hours in Kaiser Urgent Care yesterday. They ran tests. Good news is that there is no abscess or perforation. Just a [...]
How To Feed Our Hungry World
Good morning... I have continued to think about a random quote shared in our supervision group last week. "There are a lot of people who work for God and very few who actually work with God." Changing just one word makes all the difference. What might it mean for us to work with God rather than working for God to feed the many needs in our hungry world? Jesus himself explains the distinction [...]
“Be Patient.”
Good morning... During our Friday morning class, we wondered together how we ordinary people might actually hear the guiding voice of God. Enlivening our discussion, one of our classmates told us a true story. Lake Blue Ridge is a thin place for this friend, a sacred spot where heaven and earth seem seamlessly bound. On one of her many hikes through the woods, she recently discovered an eagle's nest high up in a [...]
My 2:00 AM Self
Good morning... After texted about My Rough Re-entry, my friend responded with life-giving words. "You are carrying the load," she noticed, "yoking with so many." "This morning I read a Kate Bowler devotional (my Lenten practice) from _Good Enough_," my friend explained. "She wrote about this idea: Sometimes there are two selves - a 2:00 am self (the one who thinks about challenges - family, kids, spouse, money, work, health, etc.) vs. the [...]