Good morning…
“Sue – your tears messages resound with me,” writes another subscriber. “I am still the primary caregiver for my 93 year old mother. She has regressed terribly fast. I have quit my part time job. I am always seeking God’s direction on how best to adapt her home into her private nursing home. She can no longer stand or walk. We have to physically lift her on and off potty, bed, lift recliner, and wheelchair. We will soon learn if there is anything more than can be done.”
She continued: “About tears, I am concerned that I CAN’T cry! I am gladly shouldering the responsibilities that my siblings can’t manage due to distance or their families. Will I be able to ‘enjoy’ tears eventually? Or will I completely lose it before our time together is over? Your words are so encouraging and I’m tagging them for future reference.”
We all experience times when we CAN’T cry. Burdened by immense responsibility, we feel we lack the luxury of breaking down. What a precarious line we tight-rope: “Will I be able to ‘enjoy’ tears eventually or will I completely lose it before our time together is over?”
Tears come when they come, and we learn to enjoy them as a gift from God. Tears do not come when they do not come, and we can not fake or force or fabricate. At times we completely lose it, our inner flood gates burst and our deepest parts spill all over. We can not control tears just like we can not control God. Our task is simply to surrender, to trust the healing power of their mysterious presence and their painful absence. Tears and God. God and tears.
“But true wisdom and power are found in God; counsel and understanding are his.
If he holds back the rain, the earth becomes a desert.
If he releases the waters, they flood the earth.
Yes, strength and wisdom are his” (Job 12:13,15,16a, MSG).
In His true wisdom and power, strong counsel and understanding, we trust God to hold back the rain of our tears and release the flood as He sees fit.
…Sue…
