Good morning…
I talked on the phone with my parents as they drove to yesterday’s 1:00 pm doctor appointment. “How are you feeling, mom?” I asked.
“I don’t know what I feel,” my mom quietly responded.
After a long, grueling day of doctors and x-rays and waiting and discomfort and uncertainty and more waiting and concerning results and a visit to the emergency room, I just got my dad’s text at 2:45 am: “Your mom is in Southwest hospital in a temporary room. I hope to get home within the hour.”
Somewhere along the way, our prayers for clarity were answered, unquestionably. My parents will not join us in person at our son’s wedding this weekend in Charleston, South Carolina. They will be with us in Spirit from Ohio.
“I don’t know what I feel.” Now up in the middle of the night I remember my mom’s statement, and I can relate. Which feeling words might I pick right now? Sad. Worried. Grateful for my dad’s sacrificial love. Hopeful for my mom’s healing and recovery. Disappointed that the wedding I envisioned will be incomplete without my parents’ physical presence. Relieved that they will not be stuck in my brother’s backseat, driving eleven hours with my mom uncomfortable in her body.
I created the wordless prayer card above to say what I do not know how to feel.
Taking time to really look at the image intimately, what wordless prayers rise up in you now?
We are weak and do not know how to pray, so the Spirit steps in and articulates prayers for us with groaning too profound for words. Don’t you know that He who pursues and explores the human heart intimately knows the Spirit’s mind…? We are confident that God is able to orchestrate everything to work toward something good and beautiful when we love Him and accept His invitation to live according to His plan. From the distant past, His eternal love reached into the future… (Romans 8:26b-29a, VOICE).
May the eternal love of God reach from the distant past to touch all of us in this very moment, ushering us into something good and beautiful.
…Sue…
