Good morning…
Two women in our Monday group have lost their sons this year. One young man was forty-three, the other was eighteen. For these grieving mothers, Thanksgiving was quite hard. The absence felt so loud.
As I happen upon this poem, I wrap my prayers for these two moms in the communion feast of silence.
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The Mother Stands in the Doorway by Rosemerry Wahtola Trommer
Because you are gone,
I will never again stand
in your doorway and listen
to the sound of your breath
as you sleep.
I can remember the way
it used to calm me—
the slow, even rhythm
that proved you were alive.
I used to laugh at myself.
As if you wouldn’t be alive.
How farfetched it felt,
the idea of your death.
Now, I hear the absence
of your breath everywhere—
everywhere is a doorway
where I find you are not.
And so I listen.
Sometimes it seems as if a silence
is breathing me,
and somehow, you live in that silence.
I don’t know how it works.
I only know that since you are gone,
sometimes listening feels like communion.
Sometimes when I am very quiet,
when there is no sound at all,
I hear you say nothing.
It’s everything.
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Sometimes when we are very quiet, when there is no sound at all, we hear our lost loved ones say nothing.
It is everything.
This means tremendous joy to you, I know, even though you are temporarily harassed by all kinds of trials (1 Peter 1:6, PHILLIPS).
…Sue…
